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Xander Phoena

So, Xander Phoena and I had a falling out. Well, to be more precise, Xander had a falling out with me. I cannot blame him for it. I made a couple mistakes and pissed him off. Basically, I was a bit of a douchebag. Which isn't all that surprising, except that I do try not to be a douchebag to friends. (Although, sometimes I am.)

Instead of raising any sort of defense concerning my behaviour, by discussing any of the events that led to this point in time, I won't.

Suffice to say, Xander and I were having a private disagreement about a subject, of which I took some umbrage. I felt he was being dismissive of my concerns, so I started calling him out obliquely on the matter in public. I was also bringing that umbrage into other conversations. Both, of course, were wrong, and of very poor judgement on my part. That conversation should have remained private and been settled privately.

I very humbly, and with much shame, offer my sincere apology to Xander Phoena. For not only being a dick to a good person and to a good online friend, but for also maybe/probably destroying that friendship.

For those thinking (or hoping) that I'm some sort of vindictive asshole, that I'm going to get all up on his ass like he's Hans Jagerblitzen or Trebor Daehdoow, you can be happy (or sad) that shall not be the case. Xander has done nothing terrible, and I reserve my bitchiness for those I feel have done terrible things.

(To those that are now noticing that there is a Toronto EVE Meet-Up ad in my Shoutout section. You'll be pleased to know that change has nothing at all to do with this situation. I put that ad up yesterday, before these events reached any sort of head, as a favour to the Toronto EVE Meet-Up organizers. When August 23 has come and gone, Crossing Zebras will return to its very deserved position in the Shoutout section.)

I still have nothing but the utmost respect for Xander. He does much good for the EVE Online community. And he still has a podcast that I will continue to be excited for with each new episode (even when I bitch about his CSM episodes, I still listen to them, I just don't let anybody know that I do.) I will still continue to recommend the podcast to anybody who asks. Crossing Zebras is still EVE Online's #1 podcast. Xander is still EVE Online's #1 podcast host.

I still hold out hope that our friendship can be repaired. I hope that I have learned something valuable from what has happened today. If the friendship cannot be repaired, I only have myself to blame.

Again, my very sincere and heartfelt apology to Xander.

(And an apology to the community for having bore witness to some of the fallout today on Twitter.)
Source: Xander Phoena